Monday, October 14, 2013

What's in the Way of Your Beauty?


It wasn't so much that I saw beauty then, but I was clearing the way for it.

That's the way, isn't it? I sat cross-legged in the chilly grass and dug my hands into the matted brown weeds. Several grass heads slid easily into my hands, but the roots remained firmly in place.

The flower bed had been stunning this spring. Crimson, magenta, and lemony tulips bobbed in the breeze, and a few clumsy dopple-headed violet aliums stood high in the back. Throughout the summer, the spring bulbs browned and withered, but white shasta daisies and purple coral bells frilled in their place. Since September, though, -- late-August really-- my husband had noticed that it was mostly the weeds that stood tall now.

"Um, Jen, we've been mowing around your weed bed lately," he laughed wryly. "Can you fix that?"

I meant to, and even pulled out the largest, most prominent weeds, but I didn't have time to tackle the dirt itself. It sat, and the bed grew tangled. September and October were busy until this last week. Other projects grabbed my energy and focus, and the flower bed fell to my October To-Do list.

"Right after the retreats," I told myself.

Yesterday was the day. I grabbed my shovel, hoe and trowel, and headed outside. Up close, the matted bed was worse than I remembered. Tiny roots had grown large, snaking deep around healthy plants, dwarfing them, and stealing their nutrients. The weeds were thick and well-established. My hands alone weren't enough to pry them out. Grabbing my pitchfork, I sank my weight into the ground, getting deep into the soil, where the roots clung the hardest.

So often, our inner lives can sink into disarray too, huh? Putting off the heavy tasks of processing, working through, and getting to the deep roots of an issue or sin, we can simply focus on the most pressing tasks at hand. Saying "I'll think about that later," or "I'll tackle that issue when life gets calmer," we instead allow some weeds to gain strong footings, sinking roots deep.

With cold weary hands in the dirt yesterday, the irony was not lost on me either, and I tugged fiercely at spindly brown plants while asking God to tug out the ugly in me too. We both worked hard.

My front flower bed? The soil is now soft, ready. The weeds are gone. Current purple coral bells once again have unhindered room to develop, and space is cleared for new growth. Check back next spring, will you? There is life hiding right under the surface.

It wasn't so much that I saw beauty then, but I was clearing the way for it.


(And counting, always counting gifts with Ann.)

Art credit to Daniel Rozin, Wooden Mirror.

13 comments:

Brian Miller said...

nice..i like that last line...the clearing the way for beauty...there always seems to be more important things to do than the dirty work it takes to prepare for that as well...

Floyd said...

We are like that garden, it is painful to have the weeds removed from around us, but well worth the beauty our Father reflects in us after the manicure.

Bethany Hayes said...

Thank you, Jennifer. It's so true. So easy to get busy with the "busy" and leave too many more important things untended to. Thank you for this reminder.

Bethany

Laurie Collett said...

Beautiful, Jennifer! Flowers cannot grow in rocky, weed-infested soil, and His light cannot shine through us if our worldly thoughts block it.
Many blessings to you and your ministry.
God bless,
Laurie

Jayne said...

I had a wise, elderly friend that told me once that working in her garden was where she did her best thinking and heard God the clearest. I, too, have found that to be true.

Cheryl Barker said...

Great analogy, Jennifer. Especially like the phrases "unhindered room to develop" and "space is cleared for new growth" -- something we all need...

Jennifer Dougan said...

Thanks, Brian.

Jennifer
www.jenniferdougan.com

Jennifer Dougan said...

Floyd,

"Well-worth the beauty..." yes. :) Thanks, Floyd.

Jennifer
www.jenniferdougan.com

Jennifer Dougan said...

Bethany,

Nice to talk with you again. Thanks for stopping by.

Jennifer Dougan
www.jenniferdougan.com

Jennifer Dougan said...

Thanks, Laurie. Nice to have you here.

Jennifer
www.jenniferdougan.com

Jennifer Dougan said...

Oh Jayne, I can get that! I see parallels to my own life there often.

Nice talking with you.

Jennifer
www.jenniferdougan.com

Jennifer Dougan said...

Cheryl,

Thank you. Those lines got me thinking the most too. May you have those areas swept clear in your life too!

Jennifer
www.jenniferdougan.com

Julie said...

Love this. :).